"We may not be as happy as you always dreamed we would be, but, for the first time let's just allow ourselves to be whatever the fuck it is we are."

the last couple of days i:

looked all over kyoto for counting crows cds; none were available.
rediscovered two books i love, but hadn't read in awhile.
have been craving junk food, especially, and to my utter horror, mcdonald's.
went to see the light bugs.
bought cool new shoes. bright red leather adidas. as a friend put it, the kind of shoes that'd look really good when they're old.
lost a few pounds.
wanted to cry really badly.
laughed a lot.
played spin the bottle in a dance club; kissed friends and random people.
sat and watched the sunrise at sanjo starbucks with two good friends.
exchanged e-mail addresses with a bum.
watched 'garden state' at 6am.
was 'in it' once.

elliott smith -- say yes